From Dream to Reality: What It Feels Like to Publish My First Book 'Speak Your Magic'

Writing this is my way of looking back and letting this journey settle in my bones...

To let the knowing seep deep into each and every cell in my body, and all the space between them...

That dreams are indeed possible.

That what you desire, desires you too.

That you get to co-create your life.

That life is limitless.

I wrote a book.

I published it.

I sold it.

I launched it.

Even as I write these words, it feels unreal.

And I wonder if it would ever become just the usual.

I love everything I've created, whether it still exists or not.

Right from my first ever creation after starting an online biz, TalkShop...

To my latest, Speak Your Magic...

To the longest one that is still thriving, Eunoia..

And all the ones in between.

The ones that saw the light of day,

The ones that are still waiting to see the light,

The ones that never saw and never will,

The ones that lived out their Iife and fulfilled their purpose,

And the ones that existed just to help me understand failure and the lessons from it.

I've loved them all.

But this book was my first physical creation. And everything that it has brought about has been incredibly special.

It almost feels like all these years of my life were leading upto this book being written.

Years of me working on speaking up on stage,

Years of me learning to come out of my shell and share myself with others,

Years of me teaching others and feeling fulfilled,

Years of me learning and unlearning who I am,

Years of me helping others,

All of it came together,

To bring this book to life.

After writing the book, it felt like words had abandoned me.

So many asked, how does it feel to have the book published.

I didn't know what to say, except that I was still processing it and it hadn't fully landed that my book was out in the world.

But as I write this, I can say, it's an experience to cherish. It's for me to enjoy. It's for me to fully feel.

And though it's not fully done, I feel I can finally put words together to share what I can.

Fear, just before I hit publish.

Excitement, knowing it's done and I can't change anything anymore.

Dread, thinking about silly mistakes I may have forgotten to catch and that I could nothing about it.

Relief, that I was finally done and can chill until it's ready to print.

Anxiety and Excitement, when the printing started sooner than I expected.

Frantic, to record the remaining guided meditations.

Calmness, when I realised they'll be recorded when the time is right.

Anxiety, waiting for the books to reach me.

Fear, joy, excitement, and everything rushing together, as I unboxed and held the first copy in my hands.

That was the end of one journey, and the start of a whole new one.

Joy, seeing my book in my husband's hands, then my dear friends.

Disappointment, by the lack of reaction from my extended family.

Gratitude, when I found so much love and support from my online family.

More joy, when every book that reached the souls that it was meant to.

Desparation, when I realised I was trying to force how the book should be celebrated.

Acceptance, that how others respond doesn't need to impact how I felt about my book.

Surrender, to let universe and the book lead instead of me trying to force and control.

And the minute I did that, the perfect way to celebrate this creation of mine came to me.

The best way to let the essence of the book shine in the way it was meant to.

And that's what this amazing event, filled with the most beautiful souls was.

The right thing at the right time, for the book.

For all the souls who were meant to be there.

And for me.

It's a moment I wouldn't ever forget and one I'll cherish forever.

Everything about it brought the right people, the right vibes, the right energy, the right questions, the right place.

And it gets proven yet again,

When you get out of your own way...

Life can be fucking amazing.

More that you can imagine.

To everyone who's been with me on this journey,

no matter how long or short,

no matter whether we are still in touch or not,

no matter whatever happened between us, good or bad, right or wrong,

thank you ❤️

P.S: Read an excerpt and get your copy of the book here!